Monday, May 5, 2008
Shawn's bday... I'm so lost without you
A day without is worst than anything I have experienced Hearing your voice again brings pleasure and happiness even greater then all the riches and pleasures of the entire world Till the I see you face to face once again, I will trust in You This heart wrenching pain will only end, once I am in your arms once again Till the end of time, I will wait, only you are worthy of everything I can give Only you and no one else. Till eternity, my hearts only beats for you.
Today is the day after Shawn's 21 birthday. We all had fun, but I still cant bring myself to be happy. Although I tried, I cant give a true smile without you by my side. I missed you so much, I so long for your embrace once again. Your sweet gentle smile, your beautiful brown eyes, your everything. I remember that as if it was just a moment ago.
No matter how far apart we are, no matter who is standing in our way. My heart will always be with you, my heart will only beat for you. You are the only one whom I will love with my all. The Lord has blessed me with you and I will Cherish you forever.
This is the verses God gave me today.
Exodus 2:3
The explanation for this verse is: Do you sometimes feel surrounded by evil and frustrated by how little you can do about it? When faced with evil, look for ways to act against it. Then trust God to use your effort, however small it seems.
Exodus 2:7,8
The explanation for this verse is: Special opportunities may come our way unexpectedly. Don't let the fear of what might happen cause you to miss an opportunity. Be alert for the opportunities God gives you, and take full advantage of them.
Exodus 2:9
The explanation for this verse is: Focusing on our human predicament may paralyze us because the situation may appear humanly impossible. But concentrating on God and His power will help us see the way out. Right now you may feel unable to see through your troubles. Focus instead on God, and trust Him for the way out. That is all he needs to begin His work in you.
And unexpectedly i got this from one of my friends:::
Psalm 145:14 ::
The Lord helps the fallen
and lifts those bent beneath their loads.
Alright i will stop being so depress le... Or my honey will be even more upset. Honey these verses gave me alot of motivation and strength to continue thru these 5 yrs. We will pull thru it together, we will fulfill our dreams and make it a reality. We have to give our complete faith in God and work to it, i believe we can overcome anything and anyone... Even Boss and Lady Boss...
4th May::
Stayed over at jem's place again... I had a renewed hope when i received the sms in the morning. It felt as if God had reached out His glorious hand to me when i am in the deepest pit of darkness. But then another changed had occurred in me... I seem to only get really happy when i receive you sms and when you call. But even so, I am so afraid that those 2 would find out and tear us apart again.
I also realize one thing... NEVER GET ADVICE FROM GUYS YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIENDS.... ALL THEY WILL ASK YOU TO DO IS TO GIVE UP THE RELATIONSHIP... Hmmm... I sense that satan is strong in them... Although Jem's baptised and was an alter boy for yrs... He has no Eq at all -_-'''.
So i will not take their advice, but will follow amber's to press on and keep this relationship going on. I will wait with only you in my heart. Only you forever.
Ok.. I was asked to go to church with jem by his mum... So what can i say.. And the service was so similar to that of sat's service.. It was then then that i made up my mind to be urs forever and ever. Then we went to get his cousin for lunch.. I also got the very precious call from my dearly beloved honey Minmin.. i had to hang up went i squeezed into the car.. But after getting a good position, i call my Minmin again.. Honey i'm sorry, they all were not making fun of me but Jeremy.. cos he was singing while driving and they decided to put a speaker beside him... I was so irratated by them and almost felt like jumping out of the car just to hear you... Sorry honey ): ): ):
We went to singapore flyer.. The big ferris wheel.. Looking at it, i though of how nice it would be for you and me to be in there together.. Then we went to popeye.. A KFC rip off. I felt so forced to eat the food in front of me. And i only get my appetite for a short while after ur every sms.
We then went to Wheelock place to get Shawn's present, we got him the i-dog... A dog like speakers for the i-pod. I was thinking about you every single moment, missing you have never hurt so badly.
We went back to Jem's place for a shower and to change into our clothings... Here is what i wore.. We both decided not to wear out blazer after we reached the Shangri La Hotel...
The food there is really good and there was even a chocolate fondue fountain... This made me all the more depress cos i promised to bring my Minmin for chocolate foudue.. Every moment there i just missed my honey more and more... The food tasted like cardboard, i had to mask my hurt and broken heart... Then like a give from heaven, Minmin was able to call me.. We were talking, and i just felt so blessed... But everytime i had to hang up the phone, my heart cries tears of blood... Honey i missed you so so much.
Then we had the cake cutting... And we gave Shawn a special extra ingredient cake.. We added lots of salt and pepper.. Courtesy of jeremy and me.. Then Seaweed with wasabi and onion with tobescco... then shawn's sis added some other stuff as well...
After all that, we had some photo secession and Jem drove us home...
To my dearest beloved Minmin.. I read this somewhere..
Husband and wife are not people who can leave with each other. But they are people who cannot live without each other..
After this week, i really know that i cannot live wtihout you. I am will to wait till the day you, my dearest, beloved, cherished and desired Minmin become my wife... No matter how long, I will wait. No matter how much tear i shed, I will wait. No matter how pain i have to bear, I will wait. Till the day i can see you face to face again, till the day i can hold you in my arms again, till the day i can kiss you again. I will trust in Our God. That our love will pull through any obstacles and trials that comes our way.
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Today is the day after Shawn's 21 birthday. We all had fun, but I still cant bring myself to be happy. Although I tried, I cant give a true smile without you by my side. I missed you so much, I so long for your embrace once again. Your sweet gentle smile, your beautiful brown eyes, your everything. I remember that as if it was just a moment ago.
No matter how far apart we are, no matter who is standing in our way. My heart will always be with you, my heart will only beat for you. You are the only one whom I will love with my all. The Lord has blessed me with you and I will Cherish you forever.
This is the verses God gave me today.
Exodus 2:3
The explanation for this verse is: Do you sometimes feel surrounded by evil and frustrated by how little you can do about it? When faced with evil, look for ways to act against it. Then trust God to use your effort, however small it seems.
Exodus 2:7,8
The explanation for this verse is: Special opportunities may come our way unexpectedly. Don't let the fear of what might happen cause you to miss an opportunity. Be alert for the opportunities God gives you, and take full advantage of them.
Exodus 2:9
The explanation for this verse is: Focusing on our human predicament may paralyze us because the situation may appear humanly impossible. But concentrating on God and His power will help us see the way out. Right now you may feel unable to see through your troubles. Focus instead on God, and trust Him for the way out. That is all he needs to begin His work in you.
And unexpectedly i got this from one of my friends:::
Psalm 145:14 ::
The Lord helps the fallen
and lifts those bent beneath their loads.
Alright i will stop being so depress le... Or my honey will be even more upset. Honey these verses gave me alot of motivation and strength to continue thru these 5 yrs. We will pull thru it together, we will fulfill our dreams and make it a reality. We have to give our complete faith in God and work to it, i believe we can overcome anything and anyone... Even Boss and Lady Boss...
4th May::
Stayed over at jem's place again... I had a renewed hope when i received the sms in the morning. It felt as if God had reached out His glorious hand to me when i am in the deepest pit of darkness. But then another changed had occurred in me... I seem to only get really happy when i receive you sms and when you call. But even so, I am so afraid that those 2 would find out and tear us apart again.
I also realize one thing... NEVER GET ADVICE FROM GUYS YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIENDS.... ALL THEY WILL ASK YOU TO DO IS TO GIVE UP THE RELATIONSHIP... Hmmm... I sense that satan is strong in them... Although Jem's baptised and was an alter boy for yrs... He has no Eq at all -_-'''.
So i will not take their advice, but will follow amber's to press on and keep this relationship going on. I will wait with only you in my heart. Only you forever.
Ok.. I was asked to go to church with jem by his mum... So what can i say.. And the service was so similar to that of sat's service.. It was then then that i made up my mind to be urs forever and ever. Then we went to get his cousin for lunch.. I also got the very precious call from my dearly beloved honey Minmin.. i had to hang up went i squeezed into the car.. But after getting a good position, i call my Minmin again.. Honey i'm sorry, they all were not making fun of me but Jeremy.. cos he was singing while driving and they decided to put a speaker beside him... I was so irratated by them and almost felt like jumping out of the car just to hear you... Sorry honey ): ): ):
We went to singapore flyer.. The big ferris wheel.. Looking at it, i though of how nice it would be for you and me to be in there together.. Then we went to popeye.. A KFC rip off. I felt so forced to eat the food in front of me. And i only get my appetite for a short while after ur every sms.
We then went to Wheelock place to get Shawn's present, we got him the i-dog... A dog like speakers for the i-pod. I was thinking about you every single moment, missing you have never hurt so badly.
We went back to Jem's place for a shower and to change into our clothings... Here is what i wore.. We both decided not to wear out blazer after we reached the Shangri La Hotel...
The food there is really good and there was even a chocolate fondue fountain... This made me all the more depress cos i promised to bring my Minmin for chocolate foudue.. Every moment there i just missed my honey more and more... The food tasted like cardboard, i had to mask my hurt and broken heart... Then like a give from heaven, Minmin was able to call me.. We were talking, and i just felt so blessed... But everytime i had to hang up the phone, my heart cries tears of blood... Honey i missed you so so much.
Then we had the cake cutting... And we gave Shawn a special extra ingredient cake.. We added lots of salt and pepper.. Courtesy of jeremy and me.. Then Seaweed with wasabi and onion with tobescco... then shawn's sis added some other stuff as well...
After all that, we had some photo secession and Jem drove us home...
To my dearest beloved Minmin.. I read this somewhere..
Husband and wife are not people who can leave with each other. But they are people who cannot live without each other..
After this week, i really know that i cannot live wtihout you. I am will to wait till the day you, my dearest, beloved, cherished and desired Minmin become my wife... No matter how long, I will wait. No matter how much tear i shed, I will wait. No matter how pain i have to bear, I will wait. Till the day i can see you face to face again, till the day i can hold you in my arms again, till the day i can kiss you again. I will trust in Our God. That our love will pull through any obstacles and trials that comes our way.