Lord I don’t know what is the definition of my worth anymore…

Dear Heavenly Father, how do you define my worth… Is to be used by others and then cast aside without as much as a thank you? The path You gave me is just nothing but troubles, troubles and more troubles. Can You just bring me back to You?

Lord, would anyone care if my life ended at this moment? Would any of my relatives even bother? Haha, my life have just been a downward spiral even since my mom passed away. Would it change anything if I have not turn to Your ways but to the ways of the world.. To indulge in smoking, drinking, partying, clubbing and even casual sex and all that? Seeking You have not help me much, troubles just seem to keep coming. I cannot take it anymore, I want to find that hope in You Lord… I don’t want to be alone anymore.. I really need a physical presence there to hold me and to comfort me. Lord can You become that physical presence?

Will my troubles ever end? Drinking does not seem to help anymore, it just makes me light headed.. Or maybe there is not enough alcohol in it. Tmr I will be going all out in stunt skating, I don’t think anyone would care if I break anything…

Lost in the darkness

Where can I find the light, shall I embrace the darkness?

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh