Struggling with the world, when can I find myself Lord?

Jeremy’s first right rib is still in his fridge….

I am still trying, but life is just so different without her. I remember the times we spend the evenings watching cable dramas and me fighting with you to watch my anime. Right now, that living room is just an empty room where I can practice tennis. What is most valuable to me is not what I have, but those times when I can fight with you over the remote to watch TV or to play my games. There are so many things that I regretted not doing, things that I took for granted…

Now there will no longer be anyone to nurse me back to health when I fall ill, no longer anyone to discipline me or to scold me. Alone in this world, Lord, when I can I truly break free from these chains and binds me in the darkness?

I came upon this verse by chance? I think it is by God’s will…

Jeremiah 29:11-12 (New International Version)

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.”

To everyone, I will try to get a hold of myself… I am in an emotional roller coaster now… So I am sorry if I go emo.. Please forgive me… Dear Heavenly Father, please help me overcome myself and the world…

No one will know my pain but You.

Please show me the way Lord

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

Let me find my release Lord