I know now, that at times God's calling may not be some that feels good or even pleasant. Yet it is our, my choice to follow His voice to obey.
Being called by God to fast from tuesday to saturady evening, not a meal or partial, but a complete fast, only being able to drink water. FYI, the last meal i had was with adrian during lunch on tues. So now as the goals nears, so does temptations, desires, and thoughts to disobey. Thoughts starts flooding in my head saying i should drink milk, milo or other liquid food, yet i heard so clearly that God wants me to just go on water. This 4 days are really a battle of physical, emotional and mental conflicts. However, amidst the pain, running thoughts, desires and physical torment, i still choose to say, God i will follow Your will.
I believe that God put us in situations to test and mould us, to see if we are strong enough. Sometimes strength does not come from acceptance but to reject and to stand up to it. Look at it from this point of view, Jesus endured 30 days of fast, i believe He does not even have water, and when He was tempted. He could give in and accept satan's temptations, yet He rejected them and experienced a flood from His ministry. I've come to see that when we have God's calling, the devil tends to do much much more to bring us down, to stop us from reaching that potential that God had set for us. Even if he cant do that, he will do everything in his power to shortchange us from doing what God wants. For example, God told me to only drink water, and thoughts says to drink milk or milo to curb my hunger... The will to say no is hard, yet i believe that is what God wants. It is my worship to Him.
What is true worship? I believe it is just one word - Obediance. An unparallel obedience to the one who loved us so much. That is my defination of true worship. When everything comes to an end, take away the songs, lights and so on, the only thing we can do is to be obedient to God.
I will press on, even if my body feels like breaking down. I can tell you all this, i dont trust myself, yet the only person i trust now is someone who cannot be seen, i trust my God. What is impossible with me (this calling) is only possible thru the strength of God, my Lord.
Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh
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Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh
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